XAT ??!!

A spark...tiny though it may be..has set me thinking of what I didn’t want to do this year..should i take XAT 2007/08??!!...If any of my previous vows are anything to go by, then this one is probably best termed as ‘Pathoda onnu pathinonnu; athoda ithu onnu’ (roughly equivalent to ‘Add one more to the previous list’) and nothing more..but I need to get myself moving out of what I am doing in this IT field and I do understand the urgency and necessity associated with it.. term it over confidence..I can’t help but think of these lines when I see myself in this quagmire (only consolation being that I was not thrown in, but it was on my own will)

“Nallathor veenai seithe

Athai nalam keda puzhuthiyil erivathu undo

Solladi Sivasakthi

Ennai sudar migum arivudan padaithu vittai”

The source of all this...hmm.. a couple of my colleagues are busy writing exams for their post graduate courses and couple others writing the whole lot of ‘Indian Management’ exams and the GMAT takers..Do they also have only 24 hours a day??Sure??The lazy bugger that I am ..my answer is too obvious to be penned down..

’exam’ –night outs the night before the exam, skipping breakfast (yup..bath too as usual and more specifically on the day of exams), complete exams and head right to the mess and fill until a kakka can kothify from my open mouth and get on to the steel cot or a game of Red Alert until it is cool enough to head out to Octa (our computer center)...whew...I would love to get back to those lovely college days..doing absolutely nothing..yet feel like having done everything..Comparing it with what I am doing today..a world being done and at the end of the day all I can feel is an eerie emptiness..and the routine hasn’t changed over the past 3.5 years..

Is this spark going to change this all?..I clearly remember this drama enacted exactly 2 years ago when I started leaving office by 6PM, come what may...unfortunately that didn’t last long due to various reasons and ultimately my tryst with my employer has L

Bharathiar hasn’t left me searching again..

“Manadhil urudhi vendum.....

Kanavu meippada vendum..

Kaariyathil urudhi vendum..

Dharaniyile perumai vendum..”

There aren’t too many days left to apply...and ironically there aren’t too many self-imposed vows that I have kept up either??!!

Will I wake up by 5:30 at least tomorrow??